I’ve had some weird life situations in the past few days, and have been completely ignoring the lifestyle, but I am planning to get back to it today. I definitely am discouraged, though. But I know that persistence is what will get me to my goals, not having success all at once.
Dating is one thing that makes self improvement really hard, because when it goes all wrong, it makes you feel worthless. I hate realizing that even though I’m a good person I’m invisible to 99.9% of people out there because of how I look. On one hand that makes me want to change, but on the other hand that makes me want to say fuck everybody, and do what I want, and resign to just expect to be single the rest of my life. The doctor calling me fat didn’t make me feel any better either.